Dear Dumbshit,
I'm beginning to think of you much like I think of Ethan. I believe you're socially incapable of reroducing. As it's been stated before, the two of you obviously don't believe me now, but soon there will be those lonely, lonely nights, and you'll think back to what I said. You'll see that your statement in math class was so horribly, horribly wrong.
Enjoying the ability to get more pussy than you,
<3Kibbles
Friday, November 30, 2007
Flaws found in humans: Part One
Condition One: Consensual.
Legally, this means one can only give consent while conscious, reliable and sober.
Medically speaking A+Ox4 is the highest level of consciousness one can be at, and the level at which they can consent to medical treatment, among other things.
A+Ox4 means a person is Alert and Oriented in Person, Place, Time and Event, as well as that they are sober.
Much (Safe, Consensual (kinky)) love,
<3Kibbles
Legally, this means one can only give consent while conscious, reliable and sober.
Medically speaking A+Ox4 is the highest level of consciousness one can be at, and the level at which they can consent to medical treatment, among other things.
A+Ox4 means a person is Alert and Oriented in Person, Place, Time and Event, as well as that they are sober.
Much (Safe, Consensual (kinky)) love,
<3Kibbles
I'm not an angry person...usually.
We all know how last year I was ready to knock some teeth in, I really really wanted to, but I didn't. Right now, I'm getting to a similar point on the anger scale with another person and I want to beat the living shit out of them-verbally (it'll probably hurt more).
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Literacy+Shemales=^_^
Kevin Barnes is your God. Go forth wearing thigh highs, clear vinyl raincoats, and plenty of makeup, and buy of Montreal musics, so that the world might be filled with people who have decent musics for our living aquarium things to die to.
Ahahahahahaa!!! I'm pathetic!!
Cuddling is the greatest thing ever. It's my verb. Spooning is better than sex, drugs, and purification of the human race combined. Seroiusly.
Much [fuck safe sex! this girly wants] cuddles,
<3Kibbles
Much [fuck safe sex! this girly wants] cuddles,
<3Kibbles
This kinda disgusts me+snowballing
There actually exists a group that tells people their mental illness is caused by self centeredness alone, and that by finding God, they can overcome their emotions. From Wikipedia.org:
Emotions Anonymous views mental and emotional illness as chronic and progressive, like addiction. EA members find they "hit bottom" when the consequences of their mental and emotional illness cause complete despair. This is not unlike when addicts "hit bottom" due to the consequences of substance abuse. The First Step of EA's program, in which members admit powerlessness over their emotions and that their lives have become unmanageable, is an acknowledgment that instead of trying to will away or "white-knuckle" through debilitating emotional states, the emotional suffer will instead try to focus improving their emotional health by changing what is more within their control.[25] In the Third Step members surrender their will to a Higher Power, this should not be understood as encouraging passiveness, rather its purpose is to increase acceptance of reality.[24] The process of working the Twelve Steps is intended to replace self-centeredness with a growing moral consciousness and a willingness for self-sacrifice and unselfish constructive action; this is known as a spiritual awakening, or religious experiences.[2][25]
Out of curiosity I looked up twevle step programs, and found the usual AA, NA etc. etc., for substance abusers, but when I found this it kinda bothered me. Especially since seeing this I'm coming to realise what Elicia Spotts was trying to do with me. I, the non-compliant patient, convinced I lacked a soul, refused to do something 'spiritual' as she had told me to. She was convinced God in some form of another would cure me. She didn't last long.
Maybe I just don't make a very good psychiatric patient because I have absolutely no faith in anything. Not religion, not souls, not God, not drugs, not electric shock therapy, not support groups, not CBT (did you really think I meant that? No, you perverts: Cognitive Behavoiural Therapy).
Goddamn rebels and their fucking questioning nature! Lack of willingness to compromise (lack of personality for lack of suicidal thoughts). Complete willingness to fit nicely into their diagnosis (discontinuing medication due to percieved lack of personality).
Lithium ruined me. I've come to realise I actually find it far more..pleasant? enjoyable? fun? to be delusional and mood swingey than to be medicated and feel nothing at all. It's alot less boring.
Even though it used to be me, even though I tried to get away from emotion, I now wonder why I did it, or how. Why other people would want to. By becomming completely detached from reality and emotion I've come to appreciate it now that I'm back. All of it. I smile. I whimper. I squirm. My stomach turns. I dwell on things. I want to die. I question things. I get angry. I feel fuzzy. I'm madly in love with all of it.
Drugs should be for recreational purposes only. Dependancy is the most pathetic thing I can imagine. Being dependant on anything-Anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, alcohol, pot, prescription, illicit.
I look in from the outside now I guess. I watch him drink to ease an imaginary pain. I see him try too hard-to have problems, to be a whore, to be an addict, to fit in, to be appealing. I laugh at him as he fails miserably. I laugh at his pain because, I thought he was my best friend, he used me. I worry, but at the same time I can't help but not care.
Off to hell (if it exists)
<3kibbles
Emotions Anonymous views mental and emotional illness as chronic and progressive, like addiction. EA members find they "hit bottom" when the consequences of their mental and emotional illness cause complete despair. This is not unlike when addicts "hit bottom" due to the consequences of substance abuse. The First Step of EA's program, in which members admit powerlessness over their emotions and that their lives have become unmanageable, is an acknowledgment that instead of trying to will away or "white-knuckle" through debilitating emotional states, the emotional suffer will instead try to focus improving their emotional health by changing what is more within their control.[25] In the Third Step members surrender their will to a Higher Power, this should not be understood as encouraging passiveness, rather its purpose is to increase acceptance of reality.[24] The process of working the Twelve Steps is intended to replace self-centeredness with a growing moral consciousness and a willingness for self-sacrifice and unselfish constructive action; this is known as a spiritual awakening, or religious experiences.[2][25]
Out of curiosity I looked up twevle step programs, and found the usual AA, NA etc. etc., for substance abusers, but when I found this it kinda bothered me. Especially since seeing this I'm coming to realise what Elicia Spotts was trying to do with me. I, the non-compliant patient, convinced I lacked a soul, refused to do something 'spiritual' as she had told me to. She was convinced God in some form of another would cure me. She didn't last long.
Maybe I just don't make a very good psychiatric patient because I have absolutely no faith in anything. Not religion, not souls, not God, not drugs, not electric shock therapy, not support groups, not CBT (did you really think I meant that? No, you perverts: Cognitive Behavoiural Therapy).
Goddamn rebels and their fucking questioning nature! Lack of willingness to compromise (lack of personality for lack of suicidal thoughts). Complete willingness to fit nicely into their diagnosis (discontinuing medication due to percieved lack of personality).
Lithium ruined me. I've come to realise I actually find it far more..pleasant? enjoyable? fun? to be delusional and mood swingey than to be medicated and feel nothing at all. It's alot less boring.
Even though it used to be me, even though I tried to get away from emotion, I now wonder why I did it, or how. Why other people would want to. By becomming completely detached from reality and emotion I've come to appreciate it now that I'm back. All of it. I smile. I whimper. I squirm. My stomach turns. I dwell on things. I want to die. I question things. I get angry. I feel fuzzy. I'm madly in love with all of it.
Drugs should be for recreational purposes only. Dependancy is the most pathetic thing I can imagine. Being dependant on anything-Anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers, alcohol, pot, prescription, illicit.
I look in from the outside now I guess. I watch him drink to ease an imaginary pain. I see him try too hard-to have problems, to be a whore, to be an addict, to fit in, to be appealing. I laugh at him as he fails miserably. I laugh at his pain because, I thought he was my best friend, he used me. I worry, but at the same time I can't help but not care.
Off to hell (if it exists)
<3kibbles
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
(kindercokeonyourupperlip)
I sit here watching Colby and Muhammed fighting, and I wish I had a tazer. Two of them. Also to be ambidextrous.
RiverCity is RiverCity is (pinkpolkadottednachocheesesauce) is RiverCity is (kindercokeonyourupperlip) is (compensatingbybecomingajuniorcop) is (diagnosedcrazykidsnormalerthantheoneswithnothingwrongwiththem) is (defaultbi) is RiverCity is RiverCity is Rivercity...then, now, forever.
I suppose I'm probably giving our school a bad image by stating these facts. Really though, it's rather pointless to even try to hide it. Those sores are pretty obvious...
Much (protected) Love,
<3Kibbles
RiverCity is RiverCity is (pinkpolkadottednachocheesesauce) is RiverCity is (kindercokeonyourupperlip) is (compensatingbybecomingajuniorcop) is (diagnosedcrazykidsnormalerthantheoneswithnothingwrongwiththem) is (defaultbi) is RiverCity is RiverCity is Rivercity...then, now, forever.
I suppose I'm probably giving our school a bad image by stating these facts. Really though, it's rather pointless to even try to hide it. Those sores are pretty obvious...
Much (protected) Love,
<3Kibbles
Monday, November 26, 2007
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